dream

according to my dream last night... in which i was in the middle of a zombie apocalypse leading my family (my man and children... aged about 6 years from now) to find a way to fix the world; i am going through a time where i feel vonurable and my world is changing and my self identity is changing from one thing to another and i find comfort and rely on my family. considering i am in the process of taking on an extremely different and challenging career path by becoming a correctional officer this is understandable. the emotions and battle i have had within myself to take on this role and whether it is best for me and my family or not has been on my mind since i first applied. the stress of not having any other options has apparently wieghed more on my mind than i had origionally thought, seeing as how im dreaming about the end of my world as iknow it. what scares me is even in my dream i dreamt i woke up but even in waking up my world was still the train wreck of the apocalypse. but through it all i had no fear. in fact in the dream i was quite calm and motivated on saving the world and amazingly had no fear of losing my family because they were all with me. it gives me a lot to think about while also telling me im making a big change but a good change. which i had already concluded, but i suppose my mind made it a little more concrete last night.